I become quite frustrated noting how difficult it is to maintain focus on what is really important, if you have an employment situation like mine. I tend to think it is I who am weak.
Then I remember the visit from a colleague — a colleague, not a friend, not someone I confide in — who said, spontaneously, “They are doing all they can to keep you as busy as possible avoiding falling behind, aren’t they? It is too bad you cannot use some of the energy you are expending to get ahead!
We used to wonder what, or who was causing that. We could not figure it out. But in detective stories the gerningsmand is always someone you did not suspect but who is has been standing there in the open all along. Today we may have discovered him.
Sentences I heard: “It is totally transparent. He is running this. If he wanted what he says he wants, he would have gotten it already.” Also: “The goal is the destruction of this unit.” And: “Our error is thinking the mission of the place we work is an academic one.”